“Already at 16, my mind was a battlefield: my love of pagan beauty, the male nude, at war with my religious faith. A polarity of themes and forms – one spiritual, the other earthly.” Michelangelo
Can anyone else identify with Michelangelo? I do. Not about the male nude, exactly (though after seeing Michelangelo’s David it’s a tough call) – I meant about having conflicted feelings about the relationship of the physical world to the spiritual world, around us and also within ourselves. On a smaller scale, I have this conflict with money. How am I supposed to deal with money? Money is so important in our world, and how you view\use it can reflect where your values (quite literally) lie. I’m a big guilt-shopper. I over-think every purchase and second-guess it before, during, and after. Living as a college student in Europe, I question my spending even MORE. Leather jacket, gelato, the more expensive menu item, museums…my question always seems to be: Is it worth it? Usually you don’t know until you go ahead and spend it, but I wasn’t raised by parents who subscribed to the YOLO philosophy, so it’s not always possible for me to be so carefree. Going back to Michelangelo, I struggle with balance; can I invest in material\”pagan” things without sacrificing my faith which was modeled after a man who did the opposite? And also, do I give money too much power by worrying about these things or is that power deserved? It’s a doozy of a question that nobody has a straight answer to so I digress… also I don’t have the luxury of writing about this as much as I want because a pile of homework is staring at me. Either way, I’ve kept this quote in mind as I walk through streets in a country dotted with just as many churches as high-end stores, and the beauty all around which seems to unite both polar forms.